So today is my baby girls 13th birthday!
Since she was born all I seem to have been told is “you won’t see this milestone and you won’t see that milestone”
There has been a handful of occasions where I have been told that things aren’t looking good but each time the doctors have told me this there has always been an action plan like a new medication or looking into having a transplant only this time there isn’t that magical medication that worked better than anyone had imagined and gave me these precious extra years.
So as I sit here listening to my daughter sleeping just hours away from her waking up and realising she is finally a teenager I can’t help wonder is this the last milestone I will get to see? Will I get to see her finish secondary school or hear all about the first boyfriend that she just knows is “The one!” Or more importantly will I be there to wipe away her tears or hug her and reassure her that everything will be ok because mummy’s here to help her through her problems.
I fast forward to her wedding day will I be there to fix her veil and tell her how beautiful she is and how very proud of her I am and that all I hope is that this new chapter in her life is everything she dreams of.
All these fears right now on this very day must get pushed to the back of my mind as today I am here I am at an important milestone and I will cherish every second.
13 has always been a big deal for my baby girl, she has always said “I can’t wait until I’m 13 I will be a teenager it’s going to be amazing”
And while I’m wishing time would slow down maybe even stop for awhile here she is wishing the years away until she can finally get to the age that is the beginning of another chapter in her life.
So the cards are in their envelopes and presents all piled high and yet all I truly want to give her is reassurance that “everything will be ok mummy will fix the problem that is causing her so much heartache” But this time it won’t be ok will it? this time we don’t have the magic that’s going take the suspected months and turn them into years!
My daughter is my world,my rock and very much my best friend
I am so very lucky to have the realationship that her and I have there isn’t a day that goes by that she doesn’t have me really belly laughing or amazed at what facts she comes out with or maybe a maths equation that she solves in her head in just seconds.
I am in total awe of my daughter she is an amazing young lady with a warm and caring heart that would do anything for anyone to make their life easier or to simply put a smile on their face.
As I have said many times already today is my daughters 13th birthday and although she will get many presents I will get the best of all Another day with her.
Happy Birthday beautiful may your day be as wonderful and special as you are.